Did I feel comfortable with the steady income of working full time from 9 to 5? Am I satisfied with my regular customers? I'm afraid of breaking that bubble of perfection I created. Designing and running my own part-time business with only a fraction of my time. This is what I ask myself constantly and even more so now that I am taking the Public Speaking course at DePaul. Realizing I'm holding myself back. I'm totally not willing to take risks. Fear of losing what I have built. I felt comfortable with my lifestyle. These are things that have blocked my progress towards my calling. For example, I would say I'm fine in the space I'm in right now, when in reality I'm scared. Thinking it's selfish and unreasonable to want it. That it is neither possible nor intelligent to dedicate everything to styling/fashion. That in reality despite all this being said, my vocation consumes my thoughts on a daily basis, even when I doubt myself, my vocation to style calms me and gives me the push to move forward. So I decided to deprogram myself and take the necessary steps to make the big change in myself. That meeting my full-time calling to style is not a selfish act or a cry for attention. It is a gift I can offer to others. Don't fool me about happiness. Give what I got. Do what I love. Style so that people look great and feel great in the process. Stop telling me I can't pursue my calling full time and that it's too hard because styling always redirects you back