I would tell her how much I love her regardless, and that I pray that she fights her addictions. I would explain to her how much I have learned from the events and traumas in my life and how I wouldn't change anything about it. It would be my motive to create positive memories and emotions during our time together; for us to always look back and remember, rather than the negative ones that haunt us now. I would tell her all the things I've ever wanted or thought about: be real and one hundred percent honest with her. It would be like trying to fit almost twenty-two years of life into a single day. Having a full day with my mother sober and disease-free would fill the void I've had in my heart for pretty much the last twenty-two years. There would be twenty-two years of bad memories and emotions gone in just twenty-four hours, and a maternal relationship that I'm dying to have, but which ceases to exist; it would be new
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